The holidays are over…well almost. Is Ed still silent? I continue to think of him and pray daily for him as well as Reiner. I want to respond to that lady’s comment in the Mariposa Gazette who objected to him being released.
I have not heard from him. As for the woman objecting to his being released: there is no evidence whatsoever that he is guilty. How would she feel being locked up for 2 and a half years when she was innocent.
Elsa please don't take Ed's silence as unappreciative or betrayal hon, Ed may just be trying to handle and learn a new form of PTSD, like "are they coming again" "who can I trust?" "is this over?" just things I might do given what he's been through. You did Great Elsa!!! God Bless
I’m thinking Elsa with the trauma Ed has been through the past 2 and a half years that he may be non functional right now. Possibly he’s being taken off some of those 42 medications and is adjusting to that. Also, maybe his doctor has started him back on the oxycontin for his pain. Perhaps neighbors and family are visiting or maybe he is sleeping a lot right now and Ed and Julie are in survival mode right now just trying to get the basics of his care established. I do hope for peace of mind that Ed will be in touch soon. I was thinking…have you thought of sending a note to his address saying you look forward to hearing from him soon? I mailed him a Christmas card 2 days ago to the Midpines address you provided. Thank you for getting that to us. To be honest, Ed does not seem to be the type that will take up a suggestion from them to not talk about any of this. My 3 month subscription to the Mariposa Gazette expired a few days ago but I renewed it last night. I would like to keep writing letters in defense of Ed. When a lie is repeated enough, the public will believe it and maybe that’s part of the local DA’s strategy. In the recent article you posted, a woman was quoted saying Ed went home but her parents lost their home in the fire and they have no home to go to. Also I believe the sheriff said he didn’t think it was right to release him blah, blah. I loved the part that said keep all lighters, matches etc. away from your father. Mariposa County is one corrupt county and it’s time for their corruption to be exposed. I have read in the past that a lot of those little towns in that region like Merced etc. are riddled with drugs. I’m going to look for that book you mentioned on corruption in Mariposa County.
About people saying, I lost my home - from all I read, they got super money compensation. I know of one person who got over a million dollars. Ed got ZERO because his home did not burn. Friends did a fundraiser for him, as he lost everything except his home, had no water. The fundraiser raised, I believe, about 10,000 (much of it likely from people who got a lot of money for their burned homes!!!) so he was able to get a water system re-installed. And thank you for everything else you've written about.
Absolutely - and never mentioned in all the sob stories about "I lost everything." I think of all I care about - but still, there was financial compensation, and rebuilding.
I'm not in the least surprised that Ed is not corresponding with anyone at the moment. I'm sure it will be a combination of reasons, many of which have already been mentioned in the comments. I hope that most, if not all, of the reasons are positive. Let's hope that he is enjoying time out of doors with Bella, eating good food, talking to Julie and to friends and neighbours, relaxing and getting lots and lots of rest and sleep. I'm sure he just needs plenty of time and space to adjust to being back to 'normal' after his long and stressful period of incarceration.
I would write it off to sheer exhaustion. Most people would get sick after dealing with everything he's had to deal with so hopefully he's okay now that he can breathe outside of a cell. I'm sure if he's able, he will be in touch soon but I do understand where you're coming from. I'd be disappointed too. I tend to have high expectations for myself and therefore others and am prone to disappointment. It's improving as I get older but still annoying.
I learned a long time ago our own mind’s can sometimes be our worst enemy because when there’s silence like this we always start assuming the worst case scenario.
Betrayal, what did I do wrong, I worked so hard for nothing, they didn’t like or appreciate me after all and so on.
These are scenarios of what I think could be going on. I don’t think it’s you or personal at all.
Scenario 1
I also imagine he’s mentally exhausted and/or he’s kind of lost in his own solitude that he doesn’t even realize or know a full week has gone by already.
Scenario 2
He also may have slept a great deal over the last week and again, doesn’t realize a full week went by.
Scenario 3
He also could have felt so empty by this point, especially, because he lived in nature and with his dog for so long before this fiasco, that he needs time to commune with nature to get or feel grounded again and enjoy the companionship of his dog before he even starts to feel human again. His heart or chi needs fill up a bit before he has anything give……as in, communicate with people……including even his daughter or dear friend.
I could be totally wrong. I’m only talking from my personal experiences. Of course, everyone is different.
Elsa, having just been through a difficult year, (nothing like poor Ed’s), I totally get why he’s silent. There were and still are times ‘I just can’t!’
It takes a long time to heal. A time to just sit and pet my dog. A time to reflect. A time to work through my anger. A time to think. A time to adjust to my new life. A time to cry. There’s so much and I’m sure he’s feeling it all. The fears. The loss. And no one knows how long this part of the process takes. We’re all individuals. We all process differently. I imagine he is just exhausted.
Anyhow, Ed will surface when he’s ready. He’s well aware of how much you care. ❤️
That is troubling, but one possibility is he may just have "crashed."
Not physically but mentally. He has been under years of stress that came very close to killing him. He may have shut down emotionally, I suspect I would have done the same in his shoes.
Yes he may have been told to be quiet, but I kind of doubt he would sever connections with the people who were so pivital in gaining his feeedom. After all, would you, he must know he may need your help again :)
I agree: he may well have crashed. And like you I say: Let's see where he is after Christmas. At the same time, as you will see, this has given me the push I need to do some thinking re my own quest!!!!!
Excellent realization... Christmas ''stuff'' is suddenly all around him, people activity, not just quiet with Bella... family stuff.. not brain-numbing sensory-stultifying blank prison walls... suddenly incessant distraction with a strangely familiar world from ''before''... now abruptly real again...
Plus I'd add the computer he needs being unfamiliar AND ''shared''... plus more ideas on shopping for his own tablet or alternatives.... and that appealing procrastination til your computer work set up area is ''ready'' to tackle what's in turmoil thinking status would be a constant reason to delay a ''little'' more....
Exhausting change on top of the recovery needed...
Things eventually become ready to work, after adjustments fall into place.... Just my way of viewing such a radical transition for a fellow accustomed to living quietly alone before that was ripped up for endless days of insane hopeless prison blankness... ttyl
The holidays are over…well almost. Is Ed still silent? I continue to think of him and pray daily for him as well as Reiner. I want to respond to that lady’s comment in the Mariposa Gazette who objected to him being released.
I have not heard from him. As for the woman objecting to his being released: there is no evidence whatsoever that he is guilty. How would she feel being locked up for 2 and a half years when she was innocent.
Thank you Elsa for sharing all of this!! Life is an adventure, your smile shines all over you 💌
Continually praying for Ed's exoneration and full freedom and recovery from his ordeals.
Same for Reiner!
Elsa please don't take Ed's silence as unappreciative or betrayal hon, Ed may just be trying to handle and learn a new form of PTSD, like "are they coming again" "who can I trust?" "is this over?" just things I might do given what he's been through. You did Great Elsa!!! God Bless
WELCOME HOME ED WACKERMAN! ENJOY YOU LITTLE BELLA GIVE HER A PET FOR ME! ❤️
I’m thinking Elsa with the trauma Ed has been through the past 2 and a half years that he may be non functional right now. Possibly he’s being taken off some of those 42 medications and is adjusting to that. Also, maybe his doctor has started him back on the oxycontin for his pain. Perhaps neighbors and family are visiting or maybe he is sleeping a lot right now and Ed and Julie are in survival mode right now just trying to get the basics of his care established. I do hope for peace of mind that Ed will be in touch soon. I was thinking…have you thought of sending a note to his address saying you look forward to hearing from him soon? I mailed him a Christmas card 2 days ago to the Midpines address you provided. Thank you for getting that to us. To be honest, Ed does not seem to be the type that will take up a suggestion from them to not talk about any of this. My 3 month subscription to the Mariposa Gazette expired a few days ago but I renewed it last night. I would like to keep writing letters in defense of Ed. When a lie is repeated enough, the public will believe it and maybe that’s part of the local DA’s strategy. In the recent article you posted, a woman was quoted saying Ed went home but her parents lost their home in the fire and they have no home to go to. Also I believe the sheriff said he didn’t think it was right to release him blah, blah. I loved the part that said keep all lighters, matches etc. away from your father. Mariposa County is one corrupt county and it’s time for their corruption to be exposed. I have read in the past that a lot of those little towns in that region like Merced etc. are riddled with drugs. I’m going to look for that book you mentioned on corruption in Mariposa County.
About people saying, I lost my home - from all I read, they got super money compensation. I know of one person who got over a million dollars. Ed got ZERO because his home did not burn. Friends did a fundraiser for him, as he lost everything except his home, had no water. The fundraiser raised, I believe, about 10,000 (much of it likely from people who got a lot of money for their burned homes!!!) so he was able to get a water system re-installed. And thank you for everything else you've written about.
That’s an important fact to know.
Absolutely - and never mentioned in all the sob stories about "I lost everything." I think of all I care about - but still, there was financial compensation, and rebuilding.
I'm not in the least surprised that Ed is not corresponding with anyone at the moment. I'm sure it will be a combination of reasons, many of which have already been mentioned in the comments. I hope that most, if not all, of the reasons are positive. Let's hope that he is enjoying time out of doors with Bella, eating good food, talking to Julie and to friends and neighbours, relaxing and getting lots and lots of rest and sleep. I'm sure he just needs plenty of time and space to adjust to being back to 'normal' after his long and stressful period of incarceration.
I would write it off to sheer exhaustion. Most people would get sick after dealing with everything he's had to deal with so hopefully he's okay now that he can breathe outside of a cell. I'm sure if he's able, he will be in touch soon but I do understand where you're coming from. I'd be disappointed too. I tend to have high expectations for myself and therefore others and am prone to disappointment. It's improving as I get older but still annoying.
Hi Elsa
I learned a long time ago our own mind’s can sometimes be our worst enemy because when there’s silence like this we always start assuming the worst case scenario.
Betrayal, what did I do wrong, I worked so hard for nothing, they didn’t like or appreciate me after all and so on.
These are scenarios of what I think could be going on. I don’t think it’s you or personal at all.
Scenario 1
I also imagine he’s mentally exhausted and/or he’s kind of lost in his own solitude that he doesn’t even realize or know a full week has gone by already.
Scenario 2
He also may have slept a great deal over the last week and again, doesn’t realize a full week went by.
Scenario 3
He also could have felt so empty by this point, especially, because he lived in nature and with his dog for so long before this fiasco, that he needs time to commune with nature to get or feel grounded again and enjoy the companionship of his dog before he even starts to feel human again. His heart or chi needs fill up a bit before he has anything give……as in, communicate with people……including even his daughter or dear friend.
I could be totally wrong. I’m only talking from my personal experiences. Of course, everyone is different.
I’d just wait a while. As difficult as that is.
THANK YOU
Maybe there are restrictions on any communication outside his immediate caretaker daughter, as if he were still in prison?
He still has pending charges against him?
He is free to make contact with anyone he chooses.
Yes, all the charges against him still hold. He just has a medical release, to be taken care of at home - with ankle GPS tracker.
Elsa, having just been through a difficult year, (nothing like poor Ed’s), I totally get why he’s silent. There were and still are times ‘I just can’t!’
It takes a long time to heal. A time to just sit and pet my dog. A time to reflect. A time to work through my anger. A time to think. A time to adjust to my new life. A time to cry. There’s so much and I’m sure he’s feeling it all. The fears. The loss. And no one knows how long this part of the process takes. We’re all individuals. We all process differently. I imagine he is just exhausted.
Anyhow, Ed will surface when he’s ready. He’s well aware of how much you care. ❤️
Thank you for your thoughtful comment. And all the best to you in your big healing journey.
I think that you're reading too much in to Ed's 'silence'.
Being in prison, for a man that age (and ill health) DRAINS you.
I would just let that man just 'BE", for a while.
I am letting him be. Most of all, we will see. I could very well be wrong, of course. That's the way it is, with us humans.
That is troubling, but one possibility is he may just have "crashed."
Not physically but mentally. He has been under years of stress that came very close to killing him. He may have shut down emotionally, I suspect I would have done the same in his shoes.
Yes he may have been told to be quiet, but I kind of doubt he would sever connections with the people who were so pivital in gaining his feeedom. After all, would you, he must know he may need your help again :)
Let's see where he is after Christmas.
I agree: he may well have crashed. And like you I say: Let's see where he is after Christmas. At the same time, as you will see, this has given me the push I need to do some thinking re my own quest!!!!!
Excellent realization... Christmas ''stuff'' is suddenly all around him, people activity, not just quiet with Bella... family stuff.. not brain-numbing sensory-stultifying blank prison walls... suddenly incessant distraction with a strangely familiar world from ''before''... now abruptly real again...
Plus I'd add the computer he needs being unfamiliar AND ''shared''... plus more ideas on shopping for his own tablet or alternatives.... and that appealing procrastination til your computer work set up area is ''ready'' to tackle what's in turmoil thinking status would be a constant reason to delay a ''little'' more....
Exhausting change on top of the recovery needed...
Things eventually become ready to work, after adjustments fall into place.... Just my way of viewing such a radical transition for a fellow accustomed to living quietly alone before that was ripped up for endless days of insane hopeless prison blankness... ttyl
Wonderful!!! Onward and upward!!!!!